OSHO: THE MOST LOVED, THE MOST BETRAYED AND THE MOST MISUNDERSTOOD ENLIGHTENED MASTER

One of the most significant things that I have learned is not to feel sad when you betray, not to feel sorry when you go astray -- in fact, not even to expect that you have to trust."

"The relationship between me and you has to be one-sided, only from your side, not from my side at all. You are here of your own free choice; you can move away just as freely as you had come. You love me -- that is your decision. You can start hating me -- that will also be your decision. I am absolutely unconcerned; only then is it possible not to feel hurt, not to feel wounded."

"Jesus was betrayed only once, by one disciple. I have been betrayed continually for almost as much time as Jesus lived on the earth -- thirty-three years. So many people I have trusted so totally have betrayed me so easily. There was a moment they were ready to die for me and just some small thing... if I was not fulfilling their expectation, which I have never agreed to fulfill, their love changes into great hate. The same person who was ready to die for me is ready to kill me."

"So I have learned it the hard way that if you love, it is your decision. If you hate, it is your decision. I am almost non-existent as far as my side is concerned: neither am I a partner in your love, nor am I going to be a partner in your hate. This is a sad lesson but it is good that I have learned it long before."

"If somebody assassinates me, at least I will not have any complaint, any grudge -- because to love was his freedom, to hate is also his freedom. I am absolutely out of the relationship."

"I will go on doing whatever I feel is needed for the growth of your consciousness. But people have been going on, changing... such stupid expectations and if they are not fulfilled... it seems as if they have come to me to change me, to transform me. They want me to be according to their idea of how a master should be."

"I give you total freedom to be yourself. I never expect anything, any ideal to be imposed on you. I don't give you any commandments. And yet you go on carrying within your mind certain expectations that I have to fulfill, and if they are not fulfilled... and they cannot be fulfilled. Thousands of people are related to me. They have different ideals, different moral concepts. It is almost impossible -- and even if it were possible, I am not a man to fit with those who are unconscious, who are themselves living in darkness. You are here to go through a transformation. It is none of your business how I live, what I say, what I do -- the moment you start thinking to change something in me, the bridge between me and you is broken."

"And it is a one-sided bridge; I am not a partner in it. I know it is hard for you but your very question implies, Sarjano -- perhaps you have not read it very consciously while you were writing it. You say, "Let us reverse the question for once." You cannot reverse it even for once. You are asking now, "What have you learned being with us?" I have nothing to learn."

"You are here only because of the fact that you have found a person who has nothing to learn -- and particularly from you, who are groping in darkness, in unconsciousness, who are almost on the boundary line of insanity -- any moment, just one step more and you are in a madhouse."

"Neither from you, nor from anyone else.
And my whole approach is -- and I have been insisting millions of times -- that as far as truth or the ultimate reality is concerned, you cannot learn it from anybody else. And once you have known it, there is nothing that remains to be learned."

"So I say to you: not even once can the question be reversed. I have not learned anything from you. You need not feel responsible for anything. Just being with you for all these three decades, it has not been a learning but simply a discovery: that there is nobody in the world who is so awakened that you can even call him a friend, so awakened that you can even call him, a beloved. This has not been learning -- this is simply a discovery, slowly slowly, as I have come to know human beings." "And as I went around the world, my discovery has become absolutely clear: this humanity has come to a dead end. To hope for anything from this humanity is sheer nonsense. Perhaps a few people may be saved -- and for them I go on creating the Noah's Ark, knowing perfectly well that perhaps when the Noah's Ark is ready, there may not be anybody left to be saved. They may have all gone their own ways."

"It rarely happens: never have so many people come in contact with anybody -- either Jesus or Mahavira or Buddha -- and never have so many people left Buddha, Mahavira or Jesus. It is significant to have some insight into it. Even Gautam Buddha, a man of immense insight, was ready to compromise on minor points with his disciples. And the disciple feels immensely happy if the master agrees with him -- although the master agreeing with the disciple is like light agreeing with darkness, truth agreeing with that which is not true, life agreeing with death. But because Buddha, Mahavira, Jesus and other teachers of the past have compromised on minor points, very few people have left them."

"I am an absolutely non-compromising person. Either you have to be with me absolutely -- without expecting anything from my side, because I cannot agree on any smallest, most minute point if it is not true."

"And truth is indivisible. You cannot say, "I may not have the whole truth... but a little bit, a piece of it, a fragment of truth." Truth is not divisible. Truth is almost like a circle. Have you ever seen a half circle? Perhaps you may have misunderstood: if you have seen a half circle, it is no longer a circle at all; the circle can only be full. The half is only an arc, it is not a circle. Just as the circle is indivisible, so is truth, so is life, so is existence, so is love, so is ecstasy."

"Either you have it or you don't have it.
If you have it, there is no question of your being here. If you don't have it, then be absolutely clear that you don't have it, because living in the illusion that perhaps you have a little bit of it, is dangerous."

"What can I learn from you? -- being unconscious? Being greedy? Being jealous? Being violent? What can I learn from you?"

"As I have gone on discovering more and more people, my hope for humanity has disappeared. If you want to call it learning, you can."

"I don't see any future possible. And the time is so short before the curtain falls, that you should not waste it in unnecessary things. Your life has now to be absolutely devoted to the most essential thing, the most fundamental thing: to be enlightened has to be your single-pointed concentration.

"Everything else has to be sacrificed for it, because you cannot even postpone it for tomorrow. Tomorrow may never come."

WHY OSHO HAS BEEN SO WIDELY MISUNDERSTOOD?

"It is the way of human progress. Whenever there is someone who says something against the tradition, against the establishment – the political or religious – he is bound to be misunderstood. But that is not something new."

"You can look as far back as possible and you will always find a few people being misunderstood. But those are the few people who have brought you to civilization, to culture; you owe all your consciousness and growth to that small group of people."

"Socrates was misunderstood. We do not know the people who misunderstood him. We do not know the judges who pronounced his death sentence; they have all been forgotten. But Socrates' name will remain till the last human being remains on the earth, for the simple reason he stood against the whole mob, the whole old traditional, superstitious mind, single handed. It is easy to kill a man like Socrates but it is difficult to kill his spirit; it is absolutely impossible to destroy his argument."

"Socrates was poisoned, but his argument, his statement about truth, still remains and has been adopted. Slowly, slowly truth gets into the hearts of men. It takes time – traditions are very deep. They have long roots in the past; moreover, our vested interests are with the political power, with the religious institutions, and we are naturally afraid they can destroy us. It is better to be with them; it is dangerous to be with a man like Socrates or Gautam Buddha."

"I am widely misunderstood; I don't think that it is in any way disrespectful to me. This is a compliment. The more widely I am misunderstood, the better. Certainly, Socrates was not so widely misunderstood – he was misunderstood only in Athens. Gautam Buddha was not so widely misunderstood – he was misunderstood only in Bihar."

"They were not so fortunate as I am. I am misunderstood all over the world! With me starts a new era of the misunderstanding becoming so wide. But with it there is a great hope too. If there are so many people who misunderstand me, there are millions of people who love me too. Those millions who love me, who understand me, may be silent – that is why you hear only the voices which are against me. This has to be understood; it is part of human psychology."

"Love is always silent"……………………………….. OSHO

THIS CHAPTER IS IN TWO PARTS:

PART: ONE- 'OSHO: THE MOST LOVED ENLIGHTENED MASTER'

PART: TWO- 'OSHO: THE MOST BETRAYED AND MISUNDERSTOOD ENLIGHTENED MASTER'

PART: ONE

OSHO: THE MOST LOVED ENLIGHTENED MASTER

THESE ARE THE STORIES OF SOME OF OSHO'S LOVERS AND SANNYASINS WHO WERE DEEPLY DEDICATED TO OSHO AND HIS WORK AND NEVER LOOKED BACK. THESE ARE THE DISCIPLES WHO PROVED TO BE AUTHENTIC SEEKERS AND ESCAPED FROM THE TRAPS OF EGO – THE LUST FOR POWER, PRESTIGE AND MONEY COULD NOT DETER THEM AND THEY STOOD FIRM IN THIS CHAPTER WE HAVE BROUGHT THE STORIES OF SOME OF OSHO SANNYASINS WHO WERE EVEN DURING THE TIMES OF TURMOIL AND HARRASMENT BY THE PRIESTS AND POLITICIANS OF THE WORLD. THEY NEVER HESITATED TO RISK THEIR LIFE, MONEY AND PRESTIGE WHILE SERVING THE CAUSE OF TRUTH AND ALWAYS REMAINED WITH OSHO. THEY MUST HAVE GAINED MUCH BECAUSE THEY HAVE PAID THE PRICE FOR IT. THERE ARE MANY OTHERS WHO ARE NOT KNOWN MUCH BUT REMAINED AS UNDERGROUND MEDITATORS AND LOVERS OF OSHO BUT NEVER TRIED TO SHOW THEIR PRESENCE AND LOVE – A SECRET THEY KEPT IN THEIR HEARTS. WE CALL THESE PERSONS THE MOST SIGHING STARS IN THE SKY OF OSHO. OUR HEARTS BOW DOWN TO THEM!

A RARE LOVE RELATIONSHIP

Osho's caretaker who in all circumstances remained with Him like his shadow

"I may have died without Vivek, Devaraj, Devageet, anytime. They have taken every care to keep me alive as long as possible."

Vivek, has been Osho's caretaker for about twenty years. Osho once said that he had a girl friend when he was young, that Vivek had been with him in her last life as a young Indian girl living in the same village as he and growing up. The daughter of a doctor, Shashi , as she was then called died of typhoid in 1947.

"Now she has come as Vivek to take care of me," He said. "Vivek cannot remember it. I used to call Shashi, Gudia, and I started calling Vivek Gudia also, just to give a continuity."

"Gudia is taking care of me as beautifully as you would have liked," Osho once said in a dental session, and at and other time, repeated this, adding that she was so meticulous in her care that he would even find, when he went to the bathroom, that she had put the toothpaste on the brush for him.

Osho also said of Vivek, or Gudia, that she was like his grandmother, "Nani" in some respects: the attention to detail – "I call it, spoiling!" he said – her tendency to tantrums, and her usually being right! "If she says something, I may not agree, but I know that finally she is going to be right. I will not agree, that too is true; I am a stubborn man. I have told you again and again, I stick to whatsoever I am, right or wrong. My wrong is my wrong, and I love it because it is mine; but as far as the question of it being right or wrong is concerned… whenever there is a conflict I know Gudia is going to be right finally…."

With her pale skin and delicate features Vivek looked as fragile as a piece of porcelain. "Gudia" means "a little doll," and one could see why Osho had called her that. Yet in some respects she was tougher that Rafia, even though as Osho's caretaker she lead a very sheltered life. She had a stubbornness, a fierce sort of courage that kept her going when less sturdy souls might have waivered. Vivek had no time for artifice or pretense of any kind, and if she did not speak out of temperament, right now she was silent, wrapped in her own thoughts.

Once, when a sannyasin asked Osho about Vivek, he replied that because she was so close to him, she had more "homework" than his other disciples. "To be close to me is arduous," he explained. "The more you are close to me, the more you have to transform yourself. The more you feel the unworthiness, the more you start feeling how to become more worthy – and the goal seems almost impossible.

"And I go on creating many situations. I have to create them because only through friction does integration happen. Only through harder and harder situations does one grow. Growth is not soft, growth is painful."

"Just the other day I came to know that Sheela, and the whole gang that has escaped from here, were trying to kill three people who are very close to me: Devaraj, my physician; Devageet, who was my dentist in India; and Vivek, who has taken care of me for all these fifteen years as lovingly as no other woman is capable of. Twenty-four hours a day she has been just like a shadow to me, thinking of such small things – about my dress, about my bath, about my food."

"You will not have seen any kitchen where a doctor is sitting and weighing calories of everything.
They are very miserly; they don't allow me more than three thousand calories per day. And I have to speak five hours, just on three thousand calories!"
"But they love me, and they don't want me to leave my body before my people are ready.
I may have died without Vivek, Devaraj, Devageet, anytime. They have taken every care to keep me alive as long as possible."

"I LEAVE YOU MY DREAM"…………………(OSHO)

"Jayesh had come to Rajneeshpuram just a few months before; one look into Osho's eyes as He passed by in His car and Jayesh walked back to his hotel, made a telephone call to Canada, where he was a successful businessman, and cancelled his life there. Someone with no understanding of a seeker recognizing his master would say he was hypnotized. He has set the foundation for Osho's fast growing, and last commune, and many times I heard Osho say that without Jayesh the work would have been very difficult. Jayesh was introduced to the work by Hasya, who Osho selected as His new secretary. She hailed from Hollywood and was elegant, charming and intelligent." (My Diamond Days with Osho)

Anand Jayesh has been the Chairman of Osho International Foundation and also have been involved with the work of Osho since 1984. Between 1985 and January 19th, 1990, he worked closely with Osho having literally hundreds of meetings with him, often alone, sometimes together with his legal secretary Anando (Sue Heffley), his international secretary Hasya Francoise Ruddy and his secretary for India Neelam Dahl. Due to appointments made by Osho he has full responsibility for the administration of Osho's work due to the multiple functions and positions Osho asked him to manage.

Nine months prior to his death, Neelam and Hasya were instructed by Osho to no longer attend their regular meetings. During the last 3 months of his life he started to meet with Osho alone on a regular basis.

On a number of occasions he also met with Osho and Osho's physician, Amrito. Amrito and he were the only people present when Osho died on January 19th 1990. At Osho's death almost his last words as he turned to him were, "I leave you my dream".

Soon afterwards he closed his eyes and left his body.
It should be noted here that on the one hand Osho was a very public figure who spoke publicly to large audiences almost every day up until a period of final withdrawal from public life during the last nine months of his life. Even prior to that, Osho rarely saw anyone in private other than members of a very small secretarial team, his caretaker (Nirvano alias Vivek) his dentist (Devageet) and doctor (Amrito), and even more rarely would he see anyone alone. And during those last nine months, the number of people Osho saw in his room dropped even further. During this time, Osho met only with Amrito (Dr John Andrews), his physician, Anando, his legal secretary and his caretaker.

Over this same nine month period, Jayesh's meetings with Osho increased to the point where they were meeting in the morning, in the evening, and often in the middle of the night. His meetings with Osho were always about his understanding of his work and his giving him specific guidance for both the expansion and the integrity of his work

In their meetings together before his death Osho outlined what was to be done when he was no longer with us. This included a direction that in spreading his work we should focus on worldwide publication of his books; that we should have our attention on the growth of the internet which was in it's earliest stages of formation; and to make his work available in each new technology that becomes available.

"Jayesh had come to Rajneeshpuram just a few months before; one look into Osho's eyes as He passed by in His car and Jayesh walked back to his hotel, made a telephone call to Canada, where he was a successful businessman, and cancelled his life there. Someone with to understanding of a seeker recognizing his master would say he was hypnotized. He has set the foundation for Osho's fast growing, and last commune, and many times I heard Osho say that without Jayesh the work would have been very difficult. Jayesh was introduced to the work by Hasya, who Osho selected as His new secretary. She hailed from Hollywood and was elegant, charming and intelligent."

"I understand Jayesh. He is saying that he is going mad... because for almost three months he has been away from me.
His has been a strange story.
He was a successful businessman; then he got tired. He heard about me, read about me and came from Canada to be with me in the commune in America with great expectations that "Now I will be sitting and meditating."

"And the next day he was arrested with me, and we were behind bars.
He told me, "Bhagwan, this is too much. I came to meditate... But in a way I am fortunate that from the very beginning I am with you. Although it is jail, it does not matter." And then he was with me all around the world, being deported from this country to that country."

"For three months he has been away -- working for me. Certainly he must be going mad because he has been trying to find a headquarters for me. He works to the last -- everything is complete -- and then at the very end American pressure comes in. Because the American spies are continuously surrounding him. The American ambassador is continuously watching every move."

"Jayesh has been working, working, working for almost the whole year. It takes a month or two months to negotiate with the politicians and everybody, and when the final decision is about to be taken then immediately American pressure comes in.

(Beyond Enlightenment # 22)

"HE HAS LOVED ME IMMENSELY AND IN A VERY DIFFICULT SITUATION."

"The question is from Devaraj. He should not be worried, because he has not missed it. And it is not the time of eight years that has helped him not to miss. It is his love -- not the length of time but the depth of love that he did not miss it."

"He has loved me immensely and in a very difficult situation. He is my personal physician, and anybody in that situation will be in a very difficult situation. I am a difficult patient. I don't listen to him or to anybody; I simply tell him to do what he should tell me to do. And he has to manage somehow to do it -- and to do it rightly, because he has to take care of medical science and he has to take care of a madman. I won't listen, because I understand my body and its ways. Whatever he, or any doctor in the world has learned about bodies and ways... They have learned about corpses, not real bodies; they have been dissecting dead bodies."

"But with me the difficulty is even more; it is not only a question of a living body. Modern medical science has no understanding of a body in which enlightenment has happened, which changes its functioning absolutely, totally."

"But Devaraj has been able to understand for the simple reason that he has been able to love. His science, his experience, and my body's different functioning may have created a great problem for him to understand -- but love solves everything. He has followed my understanding of my body and its wisdom, still keeping in tune with his scientific medical knowledge. He has done something which has never been done before, and he has done it successfully."

"He need not worry: eight years or eighty years make no difference. The first moment he saw me the obvious became a reality to him, and not for a single moment has he lost sight of it; otherwise you can live with an awakened person for your whole life and still not see what awakening is, what illumination is."

"So remember, it is not the length of time but the depth of love that makes the obvious understood. And in that very understanding a tremendous transformation takes place. Only such people know intimacy with a master."

WORKING UPON THE TEETH OF AN ENLIGHTENED MASTER, HE WAS HEALED ALSO

"Poor Devageet, no matter how hard I hit him he never takes revenge. So good. Anybody, and when I say anybody, I mean Moses, Jesus, Buddha, would be jealous of me. Gautam the Buddha had his own personal physician, but no Buddha has ever had his own personal dentist. They were certainly not so fortunate. At least nobody had a Devageet with them, that much is absolutely certain"

"But I love and trust Jews. Just look in this Noah's Arch: there re two and a half Jews. I am a perfect Jew without any hesitation. Devageet is not a perfect Jew, just a Jew. Devraj is partially a Jew and doing his best to hide it, but that only makes it more Jewish."

"I just had a golden experience, the feeling of disciple so lovingly working on his Master's body. I am still out of breath because of it, and it reminds me of my golden childhood…"

"So it is perfectly good that you are not curious about anything anymore. It is a sign of maturity, of moving from the state of the student to the disciple. And as I know you, Devageet, you have already moved even from the state of the disciple to the ultimate glory of being a devotee. Your quest, your inquiry is no more a dry exploration. It has become your love, it has become your very heartbeat. Naturally, all curiosity will disappear.

The most glorious moment on the path comes when your whole interest and passion becomes concentrated on a single point of discovering yourself, of discovering that you have always been, you are, even in this moment, and irrespective of whether you understand or not, you will remain always your authentic, your essential, your existential being. It contains all: Devageet has the heart of a small child, utterly innocent. His transformation from disciple-hood to the glorious space of being a devotee has come to him very naturally, very spontaneously, without any effort on his part. Just being in my presence, just being with me he has moved millions of light-years.

It is natural, Devageet, that your curiosities will disappear. Soon you will find another thing disappearing – your longing for knowledge. These are good indications of coming back home. Perhaps just one step more and you will have forgotten curiosities, questions, quest for knowledge, and you will simply relax in the new light that you have found within yourself, perfectly at ease, cool and calm, not a single worry in the world, at ease with the trees and the birds and the ocean and the stars."

"TEN YEARS AGO HE BECAME A SANNYASIN, AND STILL HE CALLS THOSE TEN YEARS JUST A PREPARATION." "THIS PATIENCE IS NEEDED."

Dr. Amrito has been Vice Chairman of Osho International Foundation ("OIF"), Vice Chairman of the Osho Inner Circle and Vice Chairman of Osho International Presidium. From 1979 until his death in January 1990, he was the personal physician of Osho. He has been closely involved with the publication of Osho's work during his life and continues in that role. On Osho's express personal request, he has written several biographical works regarding Osho's life."

"My personal physician is Dr. Amrito. His father was also a well-known physician. His father has left in his will a strange condition; Amrito will be able to get his heritage if he fulfills the condition. The condition is that the day he is accepted by the Royal College of Physicians as a fellow of the society, he will be able to get the money from the bank. If he never becomes a fellow, if he is not accepted by the Royal College of Physicians, which is the most significant fellowship in the whole world as far as physicians are concerned..."

"Fortunately he managed, and managed far better than the father would ever have dreamt of. He became – he was accepted as a Fellow of the Royal College of Physicians, the youngest in their whole history. People are accepted when they become old, experienced, when they have written many books and papers and done many researches and contributed much. Amrito did everything very quickly. He was the youngest fellow of the royal society."

"Just today I received a letter from one of my old sannyasins in Holland, Amrito. He is a famous Dutch writer, with all possible qualifications, degrees, honorary degrees. He has written many books, including at least eight books on me. Today I received a letter saying he is writing another book on me and is coming for my blessings in just a few days. The title of the book is, TEN YEARS OF PREPARATION. Ten years ago he became a sannyasin, and still he calls those ten years just a preparation." "This patience is needed. In a hurry, you can get only seasonal flowers. They come and go. The deeper your patience, the greater will be your growth

My whole effort is to make masters of you. Krishnamurti has not even been able to make disciples of you.

I have called Amrito tonight to ask, "What other nonsense have you been listening to from these so-called enlightened people? You are my disciple and you have to finish your book with my declaration that you are now a master! Without that, the book will remain incomplete. But first tell me what all these idiots have been telling you so I can answer them; otherwise your book will remain incomplete.

Yes, certainly if I find someone just on the borderline, I will push him. I am lazy, but that much I can do. I am trying to push Amrito; he is just on the borderline, but there is always a nostalgia to look backwards... the beautiful experiences of the mind, and ahead is an open sky with no limits. It creates fear and trembling. But Amrito has come closer and closer to me so I am going to take the risk and push him into the unknown.

One German has written a letter to me. Only a German can do it..."You have been pouring so much juice over Deva Amrito, why don't you declare him your ambassador?"
But he is not aware: there are three Amritos here. And as far as his suggestion is concerned, although it is coming out of jealousy the suggestion is perfectly right. Even before receiving his letter I had told Deva Amrito that he is going to be my ambassador in Holland.

Once in awhile somebody brings the outside world into this oasis of different consciousnesses. Certainly he is not aware that he has become jealous, but I have my own reasons why I have answered Amrito's questions. He is writing a book. I don't have time to answer all his questions, because he wants it to be his whole pilgrimage, the seeking and the search, and he wants to end it by finding me. He has already written eight books on me and he thinks this book is going to be very comprehensive – answering everything, destroying all lies that have been spread by governments, by politicians, by journalists, by all kinds of criminal people who are around.

It was because of this reason that I took his questions and answered them, and his questions were significant for you too.

A MEDIUM BETWEEN AN ENLIGHTENED MASTER AND THE OUTER WORLD

Anando, you are a rare intelligence but it often happens that the people who are intelligent don't have a good memory. And people who are intelligent, if they are not a little eccentric, are very flat and boring. You are not flat and boring. You are a born cuckoo. And you can hear from the very morning ... the cuckoo is going sane. I have been listening for almost half an hour."

"A man who has intelligence is bound to be thought by many to be a little bit off the track. And in fact he is. Certainly he is not one of the crowds. To the crowd he is an outsider, a stranger. He dreams dreams which are not common, he hopes against hope, which looks absurd to commonsense people. He perceives faraway things, imagines utopias. He is the very salt of the earth."

And particularly being a woman you are even more rare, because man has not allowed women to be intelligent. Man has always kept them in an inferior position. "Anando is an intelligent woman. Somehow she has escaped from the trap, and all intelligent people are so individualistic that the crowd thinks that something is wrong with them, particularly about a woman."

"So as far as I see, everything is going perfectly well. And I am watching you every day – because Anando is one of my secretaries, so I see her every day. She is growing, becoming more and more silent, joyous, humorous, sharp"

I call Anando every morning while I am eating, every evening while I am eating, just to give her instructions so that nothing goes wrong. Things go wrong so easily... and because Anando has been in all three communes, and is a law graduate, she understands very clearly why these two communes, created with such great effort, with so much money poured into them, got destroyed. She has a very clear conception. And whatever I say, she manages to do it. I have not heard her saying a single time that, "I have forgotten." She immediately takes notes and reports the next day what the situation is. Otherwise, very easily things can go wrong."

"Then He whispered so quietly that Jayesh had to put his ear very close to Him, and Osho said,"And remember, 'Anando is my messenger.'
Then He paused and said, "No, Anando will be my medium."
At that point Jayesh moved to one side, and Osho said to me, , "Medium will be the right word?" I had not heard what had preceded it so I did not understand, "Meeting?" I said.
"No," He replied, for Anando, medium – she will be my medium.'

WASHING OSHO'S CLOTHES, SHE WASHED OUT HER MIND

"First thing is to decide whether you feel joy being alone. For example, Chetna (Prem Shunyo) is sitting here. Vivek (Nirvano) always asks me, "Chetna remains alone and she looks so happy. What is the secret?" Vivek is unable to understand that one an live totally alone. Now Chetna's whole work is doing my laundry; that is her meditation. She never goes out, no even to eat in the canteen. She brings her food …as if not interested in anybody at all.

You can enjoy aloneness, then your path is meditation."
"One of our old sannyasins, Shunyo, has donated three hundred thousand dollars, after an attack on my life was made, to purchase a bulletproof car. Those three hundred thousand dollars were simply swallowed up by Sheela and her brother, Bipin. They went on saying, "The money will be returned, it will be returned within a month." Now almost eight years have passed, and not a single dollar has been returned to the commune."

"WHEN WE ARE ALL GONE, HER COLLECTIONS WILL BE REMEMBERED FOR CENTURIES"

I have found a better recorder than Ramakrishna has ever found in Vivekananda, or even Socrates has found in Plato. When we are all gone, her collections will be remembered for centuries……………………………………(OSHO)

Maneesha will also stop, she has just to finish her editing. She has got into a trouble because unless I stop speaking she cannot finish her editing – and I am not going to stop! But the work that I have given her will help her more than anything to stop. She may not stop because she has to finish the work – which will help millions of people to stop, but the words that she continually has to come across are bound to penetrate her more than anybody else.

So don't feel jealous of Maneesha.

An Extraordinary tribute from a Master to a disciple who, for about twenty five years, has been deeply involved in transcribing, compiling and editing books of Osho's discourses, which are now available in over six hundred titles in most of the languages around the world. She had become a chronicler of the amazing events around Osho. Her description of events around Osho since 1974 in her beautiful books: OSHO: THE BUDDHA FOR THE FUTURE, OSHO: TWELVE DAYS THAT SHOOK THE WORLD, AND OSHO: ONE MAN AGAINST THE WHOLE UGLY PAST OF HUMANITY is precious treasure of records.

In Cliff Collins words: "Like a palace cat curled up on a thick rug while the master tells stories, she is seldom apparent. She remains unobtrusive seeming to snooze, yet really just relaxing and savoring each moment, aware of every detail, remembering myriad incidents."
"She is obviously in love with her Master and the typewriter is her way to dance with Him."
Recently Maneesha and Sudheer have given a new wing to Osho's work by starting a new project of OSHOsamasati known as 'OSHO BARDO: Right-mindfulness in living and dying'. Through this program they are preparing the sannyasins to maintain awareness while facing death. In our opinion this program will be a landmark in Osho's work.

"JUST THIS CLOSENESS IS ENOUGH FOR ME; I DON'T ASK FOR MORE. YOU HAVE GIVEN ME EVERYTHING."

"When Vimalkirti came to me and became a sannyasin I had no idea that he was the great-grandson of the German emperor – he never told me. He was a rare human being: being a part of the oldest royal family in Europe, he was just working as a guard in front of my house. You will be surprised – for years he was there, meditating, doing his work, but he never told anybody."

"When he died, only then did we become aware that he was the great-grandson of the German emperor. He was perhaps the first German man who had become enlightened, and the reason seems to be that he came from the royal family so he was not programmed as every other German is programmed. Because he came from the royal family, he had a certain rebelliousness in him."

"His family was no longer in power; otherwise he would have been the emperor of Germany. He had a certain rebelliousness against the whole of Germany and the whole German spirit, which had thrown his family and him from power."

"He rebelled in every way. He married a sannyasin. The family was against it because she was not of royal blood. And he certainly insisted on marrying her only for that reason, that she was not of royal blood. That's how he was breaking his programming. When he came to me and I asked him, "Vimalkirti, what work would you like?" he said, "You simply say – anything."

I loved the man from the very first moment I saw him. He had a certain quality. So I said, "Okay, you be my guard, because you are so silent you will not create any disturbance. You just sit by my door."

"And he said, "I will remain grateful forever, because I would have never thought I would be so fortunate as to be so close to you. You will be sleeping just inside the door, and I will be sitting outside. You will be working inside, and I will be sitting outside. Just this closeness is enough for me; I don't ask for more. You have given me everything."

TWENTY-FIVE YEARS HAVE PASSED, AND YOU BOTH HAVE NOT WAVERED FOR A SINGLE MOMENT SINCE THE DAY YOU SAW ME

"Sohan and Manikbabu, the phenomenon you are asking about is very simple. In fact, the simplest things in life are the most difficult to understand – one almost always misses the obvious.

It is true: twenty-five years have passed, and you both have not wavered for a single moment since the day you saw me. You have become part of me, and I have become part of you. Many more have come in these twenty-five years, and many have dropped out – even a person like Ajit Saraswati.

He is your friend; hence, you have mentioned his name."

"The simple phenomenon that I want you to understand is, how you approach me. It can either be the approach of love, or it can be the approach of logic. Love knows no turning back; logic cannot be relied upon. You have been in love with me; hence, there was no question of turning back. Love knows no doubt – it trusts, and trusts absolutely." "Neither of you was related to me in any intellectual way. That is the worst kind of relationship – it is always on the point of breaking up."

"You did not love me because I was saying things which were according to your knowledge, according to your philosophy, according to your religion. You loved me first, and once you love, then it is not a question of my statements fitting in with your statements."

"Love is such a fire that it burns all the garbage that you have been thinking of as tremendously valuable. All that remains is pure gold. Except through love, in existence there is no way to find pure gold. You both are fortunate – you have never discussed any question with me. I have been staying with you for many years – others have been coming to your house with questions, with their doubts, with their arguments – but you have never asked anything. Only at night when everybody else was gone, you both used to sit by my side on the balcony of your house, in deep silence, facing the sky and the stars."

"Our meeting has been of a totally different quality. It was not a mind-to-mind relationship; it was a heart-to-heart melting. I have never felt that you are separate from me; not even for a single moment could I have conceived that you could turn away – away from me. That point we crossed on the first day." "The first day, when we met, everything became absolutely decisive for the future. It was not that tomorrow one does not know whether you will be with me or not – I could have said on the very first day that not only in this life, but in coming lives too, you will be with me. When love is pure, when there are no conditions to it, when there are no causes for it, when it is uncaused... there is no way of turning back."

"But as far as Ajit Saraswati is concerned, I was never certain, even for a single moment – because he was continuously thinking that he knows. Perhaps he is not capable and articulate enough to say it, but whatever I am saying is his knowledge; as long as he found that they were running parallel and together, he was with me. Although he thought that he was in love with me, his love was unconscious, only a thought. Your love is a reality."

."So many came in these twenty-five years, and it was natural that many would turn away at a certain point: whenever their philosophy felt offended, their mind felt that they would have to change their way of thinking. Rather than choosing me, they had chosen themselves – and moved away. With you it is a totally different thing."

"In these twenty-five years, there have been many springs. And I am not a static person; I am just like a river – continuously flowing. If you can come with me, good; if you cannot come with me, that too is good. But I cannot change my flow just to adjust to people; I have never adjusted to anybody.

I don't know any compromise. So only those people who have loved me so much that if there was a question of choosing between me and themselves, they would choose me – only those people have remained with me for these twenty-five years."

"You have seen so many changes, and you have become seasoned. Now you can be without any fear. Changes will be coming. As long as I am breathing, I will go on moving. And those who have learned to move with me have also learned the joy and the dance of movement. They are going with me towards the ultimate ocean."

"When my river meets the ocean, I am absolutely certain that Sohan and Manik will still be with me."

"A FATHER BECOMING A DISCIPLE OF HIS OWN SON: IT IS RARE"

"Yesterday I went to see him: I was immensely happy that now he could die a right death. He was no more concerned with the body. Yesterday, early in the morning at three o'clock, he attained his first glimpse of the eternal -- and immediately he became aware that now he was going to die. This was the first time he had called me to come; the other two times I had gone on my own. Yesterday he called me to come because he was certain that he was going to die. He wanted to say good-bye, and he said it beautifully -- with no tears in the eyes, with no longing for life any more."

"Hence, in a way it is not a death but a birth into eternity. He died in time and was born into eternity. Or it is a total death -- total in the sense that now he will not be coming any more. And that is the ultimate achievement; there is nothing higher than it."

"He left the world in utter silence, in joy, in peace. He left the world like a lotus flower -- it was worth celebrating. And these are the occasions for you to learn how to live and how to die. Each death should be a celebration, but it can be a celebration only if it leads you to higher planes of existence."

"He died enlightened. And that's how I would like each of my sannyasins to die. Life is ugly if you are unenlightened, and even death becomes beautiful if you are enlightened. Life is ugly if you are unenlightened because it is a misery, a hell. Death becomes a door to the divine if you are enlightened; it is no more a misery, it is no more a hell. In fact, on the contrary, it is getting out of all hell, out of all misery."

"I am immensely glad that he died the way he died. Remember it: as meditation deepens, you become farther and farther away from your body-mind composite. And when meditation reaches its ultimate peak, you can see everything."

"He was meditating for years. He was a rare man -- it is very rare to find a father like him. A father becoming a disciple of his own son: it is rare. Jesus' father did not dare to become a disciple, Buddha's father hesitated for years to become a disciple. But he was meditating for years. Three hours each day, in the morning from three to six, he was sitting in meditation. Yesterday also, in the hospital also, he continued."
"Yesterday it happened. One never knows when it will happen. One has to go on digging...one day one comes across the source of water, the source of consciousness. Yesterday it happened; it happened in right time. If he had left his body just one day before he would have been back in the body again soon -- a little clinging was there. But yesterday the slate was completely clean. He attained to no-mind, he died like a Buddha. What more can one have than Buddhahood?"

"YOU HAVE ENTERED THE DOOR OF THE TEMPLE, AND NOW THERE IS NO WAY OF TURNING BACK."

"Kaveesha, this is your truth. It will be better to say this is the truth, because the truth cannot be yours or mine. And I have known it from the very beginning, since you first saw me.

It is not a question of time – that one has to live with me for years and only then will he be able to feel that there is no I and there is no thou. It is a question of sensitivity, not of time – of a clear perception, not of living many, many years with me."

"So it can happen in the first moment – it can happen any time. The only requirement is a clear perception. And Kaveesha, you have a very clear perception and a very loving heart. And from the very first moment you have not hesitated at all in opening all your doors, all your windows; you have been available to me."

"I remember the first day I looked into your eyes, and I knew that somebody is there who is ready to disappear. If you disappear, you will suddenly realize that I disappeared long ago. So there is no I and there is no thou."

"Yes, Kaveesha, this is the truth. Neither yours nor mine; just the truth. You are saying, "Beloved Osho, I am not separate from you. There is no you – there is no me. This feels so awesome to say – even more awesome to live." "It is such a great mystery to live that it is natural it will look very awesome – it is so overwhelming. But slowly, slowly, everything else becomes unreal and false before this simple reality – that there is no I and there is no thou."

"It has happened between me and you, and soon you will see that it is happening between you and everyone else. This is only the beginning. It will be complete only when there is no I and no thou anywhere, when you are merged and melted into the ocean of the whole.

You have entered the door of the temple, and now there is no way of turning back. Just accept it as a gift of the divine in total humbleness and simplicity of the heart; otherwise it can become a heavy burden. The experience is too big, and we are so small."

"It is almost as if the ocean has dropped into the dewdrop – just think of the poor dewdrop! When the dewdrop falls into the ocean, it is simpler; but once in a while the ocean also drops into the dewdrop – then it is tremendously awesome and overwhelming. But to whomsoever it happens, he is blessed, immensely blessed." "Just take it with deep relaxation, and with a humble heart, and soon it will become your natural way of life. Looking at the trees, or at the stars, you will find the same dialogue."

THE DISCIPLE WHO PUT ON STAKE EVERYTHING AND KNOCKED THE DOORS OF EVERY COUNTRY FOR SEEKING ENTRY FOR OSHO

"This group -- Hasya and her group from Beverly Hills -- just came few months before. And they had come here to make a film. Hasya and her husband had made one of the best films in America: Godfather. She wanted to make a film on me and the movement and the ideology. So I said, "That's perfectly good."

"So she came with her group to write the script, to prepare the background. And because I allowed them, Sheela was afraid. The whole group was more intelligent than her. The whole group was more creative than her, more educated than her"

"And I saw the beauty of the woman, the intelligence of the woman, the far different superiority to Sheela. So now Hasya is my secretary. She will not fall in Sheela's steps. She is far more intelligent, far more loving, and far more human."

"Hasya is my secretary. As secretary, I select my secretary, but as president, Foundation has its own members, they choose. That is up to them, that I have nothing to do."
"Hasya is just the opposite of Sheela. She has no materialistic approach, just pure love. Her only desire is to grow in the inner world as deeply as possible. She is a creative woman. She made, with her husband, one of the most famous films, THE GODFATHER. She has insight, she has understanding, she has love."

"HE LOVED ME SO MUCH THAT JUST BECAUSE OF ME, HE WAS KILLED."

"I used to study how man must have been and how he must have evolved. I was staying.... In those days Bastar was a state, and the king of Bastar was my friend. He was a very courageous man, and he loved me so much that just because of me, he was killed."

"The government became afraid because he was a king of a state, and he was too much under my influence. He was allowing me to use all his rest houses in the mountains, in the jungles of Bastar, and they thought that if he wanted... because he was worshipped by the aboriginals as God, just as in the old way every nation in the past worshipped kings as gods. They are still in the past, they are not contemporary people, and if he said anything about me, they would accept it without any question."

"The chief minister of Central India was very much against me. He was a Brahmin, and he wanted that I should be prevented from reaching Bastar. He told the king; the king refused. He said, "He is my friend, and I love what he says – and I am not under anybody's power." Finding some excuse, police action was taken and the king was killed... thirty-six bullets; no chance was taken that he would be left alive. His name was Bhanjdeo. Because of him I enjoyed absolute freedom in his state."

"SHE THOUGHT FOR THE WHOLE WEEK ABOUT MY ROOM THAT IT SHOULD NOT LOOK LIKE THIS."

"I was at the university studying –and I am a lazy man. I had my bed just beside the door so I could leave my shoes outside the door and jump into the bed. So I didn't have to worry about the whole room. I never entered the other part of the room because so much dust was gathering there."

"In my class there were two girls. One was very much interested in me. She used to come every Sunday to clean my room. I told her, "You are unnecessarily wasting your time because I never enter inside the room. You can see my bed is just by the door. I simply jump into the bed, close the door and go to sleep. Why should I bother about the whole room and cleaning? I cannot do such things!"

"But she said that she thought for the whole week about my room that it should not look like this."
"I could see the difference when she would come and clean the room, fix the pictures on the walls, clean my books, put them in the right place. I knew that there was a great difference. It was beautiful."

"But I told her, "You cannot teach me. I appreciate what you do. I love it but I cannot do it." For two years continuously she went on coming every Sunday to clean. And she was the daughter of the collector of the city so it became a great scandal in the university because she had so many servants in her house. The collector was the highest officer in the district. She was hoping that some day I would learn, but I told her it was too late. And in the night when it is dark everywhere, who bothers whether the books are dusted or not, whether the room is full of dust or not?"

"YOU ARE NOT A PRISONER. YOU HAVE CHANGED THE WHOLE CLIMATE OF THE MEDICAL WARD."

"I was in jail in America. They had put me in the medical ward, so that nobody could say that I had been tortured, harassed. In the medical ward there were six women nurses and a doctor, and one male nurse."

"I watched the way the woman doctor behaved with me -- with such respect and such love. And all the nurses... the oldest nurse -- a very womanly woman, almost a Jewish mama -- took care of me so much that during the three days I was there she dropped one of her holidays. She said, "I cannot go out...."

"All the nurses behaved as though I had been known to them forever: I was not a stranger but part of their heart. But the male nurse was a trouble."

"Not a single woman in the medical ward ever asked a single question. They brought my food, they managed... the doctor managed that I should not go to the common toilet, she gave me her own bathroom: "We will feel ashamed to send you there, it is dirty. All criminals... While you are here just use my bathroom, and I will remember it: because you have used my bathroom, it becomes a temple for me. The moment I enter it I will remember you." "The head nurse has neve

r gone in her life to purchase things for the prisoners; they come on a fixed routine basis. But for me she used to go every day -- and she was an old woman -- to purchase fruits, vegetables, anything that was vegetarian. I asked her, "You are unnecessarily taking trouble. Things come, they are perfectly good. If they are good for other human beings, they are good for me too. Just take care because I am a vegetarian."

She said, "No, those things come mixed with non-vegetarian food. And you are here only for a few days."

The last day when I left the first jail, all the nurses and the doctor and the sheriff and the whole staff had tears in their eyes. The doctor said to me, "We don't want you to leave." I said, "It is a jail. As far as I am concerned there is no problem, I can remain here. But millions of people around the world are waiting for me to get out. Your tears prevent me... it looks very heartless."

She said, "No, I understand. Just in three days you have become so much part of us, we have forgotten completely that you are a prisoner here" -- because the whole day I was sitting in the doctor's room. To make me comfortable, she had moved to another room -- because there prisoners will be coming, patients will be coming -- and they did everything that a loving family can do.

She said, "Forgive my tears. Don't take any note of it. It is my problem that we will miss you from tomorrow."

When I shook hands with the nurses they were all trembling. They had all cut photos from newspapers and they said, "Please, give a signature and write my name. This is our most precious gift. We are enough rewarded... otherwise this jail is a torture house. Even in the medical part the torture continues; it is just a strategy to show to the world that a sick person is not tortured."

But because the whole staff was in such a deep loving attitude, they could not do anything to torture me. The nurses brought soaps from their homes, new combs from their homes. If they cooked something which was vegetarian they brought it from their home. I said, "Why are you taking so much care of a prisoner?"
They said, "You are not a prisoner. You have changed the whole climate of the medical ward."

THOSE WHO KNOW ARE WITH YOU; AND THOSE WHO DO NOT KNOW, DON'T COUNT.

When I was arrested in America, on the first day among the many phone calls and telegrams I received, one phone call was from a Zen master in Japan. He had phoned the president, he had phoned the jailer, and he had told the jailer that he would like just a word with me.

He told the jailer, "You have committed one of the greatest crimes of the century, because we teach Zen through his books in our monastery. Although I am an enlightened master, I am not articulate.

Whatever he says I know is right; but the way he says it, only he can say it – I cannot."
The jailer gave the phone to me, and the old man – I don't know him – simply said, "I know that wherever you are, you will be in bliss, so it is pointless to ask you, 'How are you?' I just wanted to convey to you that those who know, are with you; and those who do not know, don't count."

By the evening the phone calls had become so many that they had to put two or three other phone operators on. The telegrams were so many that they had to arrange a few more clerks. And the jailer, in the night, told me, "You have created such a chaos in the jail! In this jail there have been cabinet ministers, candidates for the presidency, but we have never seen such love pouring in from all over the world. You can be certain that no government can harm you – the whole world's eyes are watching. They can harass you, but nobody can harm you – they cannot take the risk."

When that old voice said to me on the phone, "Those who know, are with you, and those who do not know, do not count," all these people – Bodhidharma and Mahakashyap and Gautam Buddha – were whispering in the voice of that old man. He is a living line. He has sent his disciples to India also, and one of his nuns used to come every year to the commune festivals in America.

FOR PART: TWO CLICK 'OSHO: THE MOST BETRAYED AND MISUNDERSTOOD ENLIGHTENED MASTER'

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